Two weeks ago my doctor changed my depression medicine. Today I broke down and begged God to kill me.
Logically I know that it is just the reaction from the meds that is making me feel like this, but it doesn’t make it any easier.
I feel so much emotional pain that I just want to die. I had a panic attack and hyperventilated. I sobbed for at least and hour and haven’t been able to stop crying since. I want to die, and I also want to hurt myself. I just want this pain to end. I haven’t felt like this in a long time and I dont know how to make it stop.
Why does medicine that is supposed to help depression have to take you to such a dark, horrible place first? And how am I going to get through this?