Disappointed

I’m really disappointed in myself tonight. I cut, and bad. Probably the worst ever. I guess I’m starting the clock again. So one hour since I’ve cut. Maybe one day I’ll get to a month, or a year.

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6 thoughts on “Disappointed

  1. This makes me sad.

    May I ask what was the trigger? If it’s too sensitive or you don’t want to say I totally get it.

    If you want to talk by email just shoot me one … I’m here … at least virtually. 🙂

    ((hugs))
    ~ E ❤

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  2. Don’t be disappointed. Cutting is just a symptom of what’s going on underneath. Just remember it’s one bad day, pick yourself up and start again. And each day matters, even each hour, reward yourself for those successes because they really are an achievement.

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    1. I guess you are right. The disappointment comes from going backwards. I thought I was past this and able to cope better. Loss and abandonment is obviously still a huge trigger for me, and combined with Easter was too much to bear. I always spent Easter with my grandma when she was alive. It was just one of our days.

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      1. I know it’s so hard not to beat yourself up for it. But it isn’t going backwards. You’ve got to keep in perspective everything that has changed, all the work you’ve done. That can’t be erased or rewound. And cutting is a very entrenched behaviour that will resurface sometimes, especially when things are tough or triggering. Holidays and anniversaries are always difficult for people like us x

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