Thank you

I’m not sure what’s going on this week, but I love it! Yes, there have been some down points, but this week I have done so much reflection, and felt thankful so many times… it is truly amazing!

I wanted to take a moment and give thanks where thanks is due because the best part of feeling grateful is passing it along. The best part of healing and beating depression and anxiety down is helping others. The best part of being okay is bringing other people up with me. That is where I find the best good feelings; in making others feel good too.

I want to start with the most important person in my life, my partner Liz. Liz- not only are you my rock through the worst storms, no one has ever been here for me like you have. I am honored to take this journey with you. I couldn’t have come this far without you. You are truly my light in the darkest of nights.

Next, I need to send a shout-out to my therapist. I also could not have done this without you. I have had a lot of therapy along the way since I went into foster care at 15. I’ve tried this rodeo many times and always fallen off the horse. You stuck with me; you found the approach that worked. You saved my life and I will never forget it. Anyone out there that needs therapy, please consider Talkspace. I have tried traditional therapy so many times and was unsuccessful because face to face interaction with a shrink once a week just doesn’t work for me. Being able to write in an app anytime I was upset and hear back every day really made the difference. I’ve done more work the past year than ever in my life, and I am finally starting to feel like I’m getting somewhere.

To my family- I know things haven’t been the same since Grandma died. I know she was the glue holding all of us together. I know having surgery this past year wasn’t ideal, but you all totally stepped up to the plate and made a HUGE difference in my recovery. J- thank you so much for driving all the way up here to take care of me after my surgery. I’ll never forget that! And I miss talking to you on the phone everyday like when I was on medical leave from work! A- Thank you for visiting me so many times and always sending me such nice texts reminding me that I’m special and worth it. K- hang in there girl, things can only get better! You have a lot of amazing things in your life, just remember that when things get overwhelming. To my aunt- I love your texts every morning reminding me you are thinking of me! It makes my day! To Liz’s mom- thank you so much for always being there, and all the talks we had after our surgeries!

MJ- A very special shout-out to you. We found each other at a time when we both needed a friend. I know we are physically far apart, but I’m constantly sending you ghost hugs! You’re a tough chick and you are going to be just fine. Hang in there, and know I’ve got your back.

To my work friends (you know who you are): Thank you so much for stepping up to the plate after my surgery, and still being there now. You have all made this journey much easier. Just knowing you are there to lend a hand when I need help back up makes so much of a difference!

To everyone on WordPress that follows my blog and takes the time to read my postings- thank you! Seeing the overwhelming support from strangers is so uplifting! I care about every one of you and I am glad you let me be part of your journey, as well as you being a part of mine.

If I’ve learned anything this week, it is how VITAL it is to surround yourself with good people. Having supportive people to help drag you out of the hole that depression puts you in makes all the difference in the world. Even if your support system is random people online you have never met, and don’t even know their names, it is so important to let them be a part of your journey.

Life is hard; hell, it kills you afterall. Don’t try to go it alone. Let positive, inspiring people in and let them be part of your support system. I know it is scary to be vulnerable, hell half the time it seems impossible. But it is so worth the risk. When you find that perfect combination of people to support you, and you to support them, only then can you truly fly.

I’m here for you, I care about you. All you have to do is reach out.


13 thoughts on “Thank you

  1. WHAT a beautiful post … my recommendation to you is to print it out. Put it somewhere like on the fridge, folded in half, with the words written on the outside that say, “READ WHEN DOWN”.

    Because the down moments won’t always be gone and you’ll have these words to help you come back up, to remind you of what you have written, what’s helped and helping you. YOU can be your past self to help your future YOU! ❤

    Keep writing!!!! 🙂

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  2. I want to ask you about Talkspace. I went to the site and checked it out. I wish they had MORE information. This is where your current therapist is from, right? How are you able to find the “best” fit of the therapists there? Do they pick you? Do you write an intro of your problem(s) and then one chooses you? Do you email them when you communicate? Do you text by phone? Can you do both? How many times can you communicate in a day? Do you think the price is worth it?

    Lots of questions for you … just asking you as someone who as used Talkspace. 🙂

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    1. Yes, my current therapist is from talkspace. When you go to the site you talk to a counselor who asks you to tell them what you want counseling for and asks questions. Based on that they set you up with someone. If it doesn’t work out with that person you can always request someone else.
      You communicate via the app or website in a sort of chat room. You can write anytime you want and they get back to you. My personal counselor writes every day back to me, whereas the couples counselor I also have through talkspace writes once a day Monday to Friday. Regardless it’s still more than traditional counseling which is usually once a week.
      As someone who is better at writing than talking to a real live in your face person it works amazing for me. Been doing it for over a year and have never made this much progress. I find I can be more open and honest about my feelings through writing, and I like being able to write and read their response anytime I want.

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      1. I think I would like this method a lot. I have some work stress … OK a lot of work stress that I need to work out with someone. You can’t constantly dump everything on your partner — they simply get sick of hearing sh*t day after day and it takes a lot of the joy out of the relationship.

        Went back to the site and read some more.

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